In this moment, I feel utterly bereft. Knowing is better than not knowing; the grief of knowing, at times washes over me taking my breath, and I am in that moment, painfully aware of the depth of loss which my son has experienced. Bearing witness, not a victim--simply a mother bearing witness; enraged. Driven by my innate instincts, a visceral need to protect and defend my son; my attempts were met with derision and scorn, and my rage was labeled a symptom of dysfunction. I know it was not--and I knew it then.
In this moment I seek solace, peace, and clarity.
1If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am become sounding brass, or a clanging cymbal. 2And if I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.3And if I bestow all my goods to feed the poor , and if I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profiteth me nothing.4Love suffereth long, and is kind; love envieth not; love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,5doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not its own, is not provoked, taketh not account of evil; 6rejoiceth not in unrighteousness, but rejoiceth with the truth; 7beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. 8Love never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall be done away; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall be done away. 9For we know in part, and we prophesy in part; 10but when that which is perfect is come, that which is in part shall be done away. 11When I was a child, I spake as a child, I felt as a child, I thought as a child: now that I am become a man, I have put away childish things. 12For now we see in a mirror, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know fully even as also I was fully known. 13But now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; and the greatest of these is love. | |||
Love abides
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